Exercise

Damn guys, I’m exercising again! I haven’t properly exercised since I got depression. The last month or two I’ve been doing a few kilometres here and there on an exercise bike, nothing too substantial but a start. The last few nights I’ve been doing some of those ten minute exercise videos from YouTube and I’m going swimming in a while.

Maybe this is just a short burst of energy but it’s definitely a start.

Lucy.

Eurovision 2015 Thoughts

It’s back, the only TV show where shoes are unnecessary and bearded women are accepted. It’s the Eurovision!

This year, the Eurovision Song Contest will take place on the 23rd of May in Vienna after Conchita’s win last year. 2015 marks the 60th anniversary of the Eurovision and as a special treat, Australia will be taking part. Yes, Australia. We’re aware that it’s halfway round the world but due to its loyal fan base it shall participate in the 2015 Eurovision!

My favourite is Maraaya from Slovenia:

While nice, it’s not very popular or unique, but remaining loyal to my home, here is Ireland’s Molly Sterling:

The best looking group is Il Volo who are representing Italy. These lads seem to be in with a good chance of winning but their song is not in English, which unfortunately may decrease their chances:

The current favourite to win seems to be Sweden, followed by Italy and Estonia. Sweden was in trouble earlier this week for copyright issues with the music video although a preview of the new video has now been posted on the Eurovision YouTube channel:

In conclusion, I would quite like Slovenia or Italy to win considering that it seems unlikely that Ireland will win. Sweden and Estonia seem to be the favourites, but the novelty of having Australia participate and political voting will skew the result.

Lucy.

My Current Mental Heath

For a long while, this blog was where I came when I needed to rant and rave about my depression. I wouldn’t say that I’m depression free – it’s always lurking – but I feel a lot more in control and I may be taken off fluoxetine at the start of July. There are good days and bad days, but overall I’m a lot happier compared to when suicide seemed to be the only answer and self harm my only relief.

I feel that removing certain people from my life has helped me a lot. When I come into contact with those people, their poisonous influence can decrease my stability. Being away from certain teachers has helped me too, and when I move to a different school to complete my A Levels, a weight will be taken off my shoulders.

Some days I wonder if I still want Being Weirdly Awesome, I now post on average every one to two weeks and my stats are declining. Maybe the world only wants to hear about people’s pain and not their happiness.

Lucy.

Presented By a Cousin of Mine (what a great extended family I have!)

LucyBre:

So true, so unbelievably true

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SONG OF THE WEEK Years & Years King Video and Lyrics

When I saw the predictions for Years & Years having a hit song, I said to myself “I’ll never hear of them again”. Thankfully I was wrong, here is King from Years and Years:

Lyrics:
 
I caught you watching me under the light
Can I realign?
They say it’s easy to leave you behind
I don’t want to try

Co-cover, take that test
Hold coverage to your chest
Don’t want to wait for you
Don’t want to have to lose
All that I compromised to feel another high
I’ve got to keep it down tonight

And oh, I was a king under your control
And oh, I want to feel like you’ve let me go
So let me go

Don’t you remember how I used to like being on the line
I dreamed you dreamed of me, calling out my name
Is it worth the price?

Co-cover, take that test
Hold coverage to your chest
Don’t want to wait for you
Don’t want to have to lose
All that I compromised to feel another high
I’ve got to keep you down tonight

And oh, I was a king under your control
And oh, I want to feel like you’ve let me go

I had to break myself to carry on
No longer, no admission
Take this from me tonight
Oh let’s fight, oh let’s fight
Oh let’s fight, oh

And oh, I was a king under your control
And oh, I want to feel like you’ve let me go
So let me go

Let go, let go, let go of everything
Let go, let go, let go of everything
Let go, let go, let go of everything
Let go, let go, let go of everything

Ear Piercing Number Two?

I got my ears pierced for the first time in December, I bypassed the standard lobe piercing and got my upper lobe pierced.

The piercing itself didn’t hurt, but then both ears got infected and the earrings were impossible to remove from my already painful ears. It soured my experience a bit, but I feel like those mistakes won’t be repeated.

So, is it time for piercing number two? In my last post I claimed I wanted an anti-tragus piercing, but now I’m not so sure. You see, my school only allows us to have one piercing that must be in the ear lobe. If you don’t remove any other piercings, you get a detention and if it still isn’t gone; suspended. Eyebrows were raised at my upper lobe piercing, but nothing was said considering it is still technically allowed.

I might still get a helix and an anti-tragus piercing, but I won’t decide until the summer or at least until my right ear heals. The left ear is fine, the right ear got infected again which has slowed the healing process.
Although, many fake helix earring are available these days which are quite cute and don’t require a piercing. E.g: It’s a big decision to get a piercing, and I’m not ready to make it now.
Lucy.

Rolling With The Punches

Something I wanted so badly, has just destroyed something that I love so much. I’m confused, numb and guilty. My friends need me, but I’m leaving them to go gallivanting around Madrid while they do grade 6 trinity award. I should be in their group, I should be acting alongside them. But now a new girl called Ellie has taken my place. I know it’s not her fault, but I resent her. She has taken my character, the one that I created.

What a mess